Thoughts

Survive

via Daily Prompt: Survive

Survive a simple word with a lot of hard work behind it.

To survive we need to eat, sleep, and stay dehydrated right? Super easy. No big deal.

Other people don’t want us to survive, other people want us to live, other people want us to feel more than just our standard days.

Some people barely survive each day due to their own struggle either mental and/or physical. Some people survive easily as if it came naturally to them everything they ever needed. But some people don’t even get the chance to survive.

What is survival? Is it having your basic needs and managing to get through every day. Is it living every moment to its fullest? Is it trying to break out of your mind every day just to locked back in again when night comes?

Do we want to survive? Were we even given the choice? Would we chose to survive if we knew everything that would happen to us in our lifetime the moment we were born? I think we would, we are curious creatures and it is in our nature to survive. Look at every terrorist attack we have and you will see people banding together to make sure the victims survive and that anyone involved survives because survival may not always be easy but it is necessary to make things better. The moment everyone gives up then no one truly survives.

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Fandom

My Top 5 Fandoms

Harry Potter

Harry Potter is at the top of my favourite Fandoms. This is because I can’t remember a time when I wasn’t a fan of Harry Potter. Harry Potter has always been an escape for me from my complicated family life to being bullied. I’ve become the ‘Harry Potter’ friend and most days I’ll be wearing Harry Potter merchandise. I’ve been to the Harry Potter studio tour twice and both times were equally magical in their own ways. I’ve learnt so much from the books from friendship to how to cope with grief. I owe this fandom a lot it got me through being bullied in primary school and helped me find a love of reading at a young age.

Supernatural

This is one of the newer fandoms I’ve been in. I’ve never felt so much love and support from a fandom I’ve only been in for two years  (Three years in August!!). It has really helped me with my mental health especially Jared’s Always Keep Fighting Campaigns. I’ve never felt judged in this fandom, I started watching Supernatural just after I had my mental breakdown after I finish school. A friend kept recommending it to me and as I had shut a lot of people out of my life and I ended up spending a lot of my time alone I decided to give it a shot. I have to say it was the best thing I did, it helped me communicate more with friends who watched Supernatural, people online who were also fans of the show and later on down the line recommend it to new friends I made at college. This show got me out of a mental slump that I had created and caused for myself and really brought me back to myself and actually more so and has helped me understand so much more about myself.

Doctor Who

This fandom I got into in 2005 when the new version started. I got into Doctor Who because of my uncle. I really looked up to him and I used to stay at my granny’s all the time so on Saturdays we would go to his room and watch Doctor Who and eat a piece of cake before bed and I loved it. Although I am now more into Doctor Who than he is which makes me a little sad because it was something we used to enjoy together and now I enjoy it alone but for a brief time my cousins also watched it with me. This show really was all about family for me, I only started watching because my uncle had grown up watching it when he was younger and wanted to watch the new doctor who in 2005. I have to say that my knowledge of doctor who has barely scratched the surface as the fandom really is bigger on the inside, spinoffs, comics, books, the pre 2005 era doctor who, the magazines, podcasts, it really is hard to keep up with it all. I now watch doctor who on a Sunday with my mum as she works Saturday nights she we record it to watch together on a Sunday so even now it is still a family fandom for me but also loads of my friends watch it too which is nice to share thoughts etc.

Merlin

This was another one of those shows I found on a Saturday while at my granny’s look for something interesting to watch on the only four channels that were available on the television upstairs. I remember just watching it because I couldn’t find anything else and falling in love with the fantasy and magic that is the show but not to mention the essence of the show. The bromance between Merlin and Arthur (but also with Colin and Bradley), The complexity of Morgana, Anthony Head (I don’t think it needs much explanation, he’s a brilliant actor and I loved him as Giles in Buffy), GWAINE, That hair, John Hurt as the dragon, Gaius I love this character so much. There are so many characters and actors that I instantly fell in love with or re fell in love with if I had seen them on other things before. One of my best friends and I absolutely loved the show and we still fangirl over silly things like Gwaine’s hair or Colin’s cheekbones!!

OUAT (Once Upon A Time)

I’m only just getting into this fandom, I think I’m mid way through season 2 so I can’t say I’m a major fan or a number 1 fan of everyone. However I do feel like I have formed a strong connection with this show. The characters mean something to me, I am always engaged in the story, and the props and sets always look amazing and what more could you want from a TV show really? I like that it teaches you something as well as you’re watching even if you don’t realise it yourself. I find myself amazed at how classic fairy tales are given twists and turned into everyday people, I never expected myself to be hanging at the end of my chair each episode, the characters aren’t as predictable as you may think they are which I love. There is also two sides to each character to and even though they may act evil that they aren’t always or they didn’t start out to be. I love this show and can’t wait to learn more about it and the characters.

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Love, Mental Health, Thoughts

I just want to be loved

I just want to be loved…
I want someone to look at me completely in love with me. In love with my laugh, the way my nose scrunches if I find something particularly funny. The way I care about people. The way I try and show off a little when I haven’t seen people in ages. The way I try and feed everyone all the time, whether they’re sad, angry or even happy. The way I fall in love with chick flicks and get WAY too into the story.

I want someone to look at me and truly see me inside not what every mask I have up. Understand that I’m acting a certain way because of who I’m with, family, friends, you. Someone who understands that I’m confident with people I know really well but them freeze and shutdown a little with people I don’t know. That I don’t like answering the phone but that I will do it even if it terrifies me. That I can cook really well but I still need reassurance that I am doing it right.

That I may have days where I don’t want to talk to you and that it may hurt but I shutdown and can’t help. I want someone to understand when I’m having those days and when I’m struggling. I want someone to help me with the bad days and ride the good days with me.

………I just want someone

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Fandom

Welcome to Nightvale

I’ve been listening to a podcast recently called Welcome to Nightvale. The narrator is a character called Cecil who works as a radio host at the Nightvale radio station. Nightvale is a fictional town that he lives in as well as many other residents. He tells the listens all about the events in Nightvale from the unveiling of the Dog Park to the whispering trees. There are occasionally guest speakers who will voice recurring characters or random characters like the old lady with no face who lives in your house. This podcast is sort of like a sci-fi, comedy, conspiracy sort of show.  The town is full of conspiracies and things aren’t always what they seem in Nightvale.

 

This podcast was recommended to me by a friend of mine who loves listening to while Welcome to Nightvale and has even seen one of the live shows. I am recommending this podcast to anyone who has to get the bus, walk anywhere, drive for a while on your own, or anyone who likes to listen to podcasts.

 

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Fandom, Uncategorized

Top Ten Favourite Harry Potter Quotes

Hi Guys,

I am mad about Harry Potter and I have become the designated ‘Harry Potter Friend’. I thought I’d share my Top Ten favourite Harry Potter quotes. Enjoy~

  1. “Mr. and Mrs. Dursley, of number four Privet Drive, were proud to say that they were perfectly normal, thank you very much.”

    ― J.K. Rowling, Harry Potter and the Philosopher’s Stone

  2. “But you know, happiness can be found even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.”

    ― J.K. Rowling, Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban

  3. “I am what I am, an’ I’m not ashamed. ‘Never be ashamed,’ my ol’ dad used ter say, ‘there’s some who’ll hold it against you, but they’re not worth botherin’ with.”

    ― J.K. Rowling, Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire

  4. “Words are, in my not-so-humble opinion, our most inexhaustible source of magic. ”

    ― J.K. Rowling, Harry Potter and the Philosopher’s Stone

  5. “You sort of start thinking anything’s possible if you’ve got enough nerve.”

    ― J.K. Rowling, Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince

  6. “If you want to know what a man’s like, take a good look at how he treats his inferiors, not his equals.”

    ― J.K. Rowling, Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire

  7. “Things we lose have a way of coming back to us in the end, if not always in the way we expect.”

    ― J.K. Rowling, Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix

     

  8. “Don’t let the Muggles get you down.”

    ― J.K. Rowling, Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban

  9. “I solemnly swear that I am up to no good”

    ― J.K. Rowling, Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban

  10. “All was well.”

    ― J.K. Rowling, Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows

 

Dana x

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Love, Thoughts

To My Crush

Hey,

I’m pretty sure you know I exist I mean I lent you that pencil in class…which you still haven’t given back but it’s ok you keep it I have plenty. I smiled at you as I gave you that pencil and you smiled back at me so it was worth it. I then gazed at the back of your head and thought about what we could talk about. Then class was over and I wouldn’t see you anymore that day. I said bye as I gathered up my things and you said ‘seeya’.

I friended you on Facebook, we have a group presentation to do. I added the whole group and created a group chat for the whole presentation. Even though I ended up doing most of the work. I gave you the easy job of printing photos for the poster we were presenting and you smiled at me making my heart melt. We had to present our poster and you stood next to me….there was no where else to stand but I knew you wanted to stand next to me.

I missed class because I was on a trip so I message you asking what I missed and if we had homework. You don’t know…you were ill. My whole conversation planned fell to pieces. We end up talking about wrestling which was interesting. You have a nice sense of humor. You make me smile. Oh you’re offline now…night I guess.

Then speaking to a friend I realised I was overthinking the whole thing. It was only a pencil. It was only a smile. It was only a friend request. It was only standing next to you. It was only a smile. It was only a conversation. It was only a smile. It was only a smile. It was only a smile!

Maybe one day I’ll speak to you properly and stop being weird in front of you overthinking every action when you’re with me.

Thank you for putting up with me

Dana.

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Thoughts, Uncategorized

Why am I here?

Hi Guys,

Fun fact: only one person I know actually knows about this blog.

I am here on WordPress blogging publicly about my thoughts, fandoms and mental health because I wanted some where to express my thoughts and feelings about things but also some where I could express these thoughts to like minded people who weren’t people I knew first hand irl and wouldn’t judge me. I started off just wanting to share my experience of counselling but then I wrote about dealing with grief and it just got easier to write down my thoughts.

I would love to connect to people who share the same Fandoms as me, people who share some of the same feelings with me and mental health issues. I would love to think that at least someone has read my blog about counselling or my anxiety and that has helped someone to know that they are not alone because they aren’t alone ever. We are a community and if we all share these problems then I hope we can help each other too.

I currently write about a variety of different topics but so far they fall into four categories; Fandom, Love, Mental Health, and Thoughts. Fandom covers a lot of different Fandoms that I am a part of. Ones I have recently got into, ones I have been in for as long as I can remember, ones that have helped me with my mental health, and one I recommend to any and every one I can. Love covers Family, Friends and of course crushes. Mental Health covers not only my anxiety and depression but also any body issues or anything I deem as a symptom of or relation to mental health issues. Thoughts cover any thoughts that I have had and written down and found important to express but doesn’t fall into either of the other three categories and this could be random thoughts or meaningful thoughts.

Dana x

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