Fandom, Uncategorized

Supernatural Pop culture references

X-Files

1×01 PILOT

SHERIFF: Can I help you boys?
DEAN: No sir, we were just leaving. Agent Mulder, Agent Scully.

1×04 PHANTOM TRAVELER

DEAN: All right, this is gonna sound nuts, but we just don’t have time for the whole “The truth is out there” speech right now.

Star Wars

2×05 SIMON SAID

SAM: Dean! Andy’s got the Impala!
DEAN: I know! He just sorta asked me for it and I, I let him take it.
SAM: You what?
DEAN: He full-on Obi-Wanned me. It’s mind control, man!

Ghostbusters

1×17 HELL HOUSE

DEAN: Who ya gonna call?

[Ed Zeddmore and Harry Spengler surnames refere to the characters from Ghostbusters: Winston Zeddmore and Egon Spengler.]

2×06 NO EXIT

SAM: What’s that?
DEAN: What?
SAM: Holy crap.
DEAN: That’s ectoplasm. Well, Sam, I think I know what we’re dealing with here. It’s the Stay-Puff Marshmallow Man.

Gilmore Girls

2×18 HOLLYWOOD BABYLON

The Winchesters are on a tour of Hollywood. The tour guide says that they are passing the place where Gilmore Girls (2000) is filmed, and if they’re lucky they might get to see one of the stars. Jared Padalecki, who plays Sam Winchester, had a starring role on Gilmore Girls (2000), playing a character named Dean Forester. At this point, Sam Winchester looks uncomfortable and quickly leaves the tour bus.

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Mental Health

I have PTSD

I came to this realisation the other week.

My mums boyfriend died at my house 20th February 2015. He died about 5 in the morning, I remember that night as if it were yesterday.  I was woken up to a loud noise that I can only describe as a horrible cough possibly a constant clearing of their throat. It was a horrible noise and it was very loud. I thought it was one of our house mates as he was prone to coughing fits a lot. I closed my door to try and get back to sleep. (This is one of my biggest regrets). I didn’t know my mums boyfriend was at the house that night as he had come after I went to bed. Eventually I left my room as I couldn’t get back to sleep and suddenly one of our housemates had run upstairs and they had woken the other housemate. That day was very traumatic for me, we had an ambulance round and the police round and it was nonstop until 11 that day when he was pronounced dead and the police had stopped questioning us. It was the most traumatic and stressful day I can remember. I thought, well I still think what I heard that day when he was dying that he said No and it haunts me every time I hear an odd noise or get flashback.

If I hear a noise while I am trying to sleep or trying to get to sleep I get flashbacks to that night, I can’t close my bedroom door if I hear a noise outside or in the house somewhere. I physically can not close my door on a noise, I get flashbacks to that night and can’t sleep because every time I close my eyes I am transported instantly to that night. Sometimes if I see someone who looks even a bit like him I have a internal panic attack and have to try and remind myself that it’s not him and that I am ok and that that day is not happening now. Sometimes I hear a noise like the noise he made that night, out in public or on a Youtube video when I least expect it and I feel powerless as I am forced to relive this event again and again. Just talking about this right now has caused me to have flashbacks and I’ve had to ground myself several times. As a result of the impact this post is having on myself writing this blog post, this will be the last time I post about it, I have previously written about this before last year so please feel free to read that blog post which goes into a lot more detail about the events of that day.  The link to that post is below.

Death of a loved one

 

You must be wondering why I would want to write another post like this if it’s affecting me so badly. I want to boost awareness for PTSD and for anyone who has experienced what I experienced. Mental Health Awareness is important and you are not alone with your mental health what ever you have someone else has probably had it or is going through and can help or might need your help and experience. I don’t want there to be a stigma which is why I am always honest and open about my Mental Health even when it’s hard.

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Fandom, Thoughts

My time at a con on Sunday

So I went to my third con on Sunday and I went with my friend, it was her first ever con.

I cosplayed as Dean Winchester for the con and we had lots of fun. She didn’t feel well so she didn’t cosplay but she was going to go as Clara Oswald. At the con there were loads of other like minded people who also love their own fandoms. There were Harley Quinns, Deadpools, Jack Skellington, the 11th doctor, The Ghostbusters, characters from Star Wars, Characters from the Labyrinth, and so many other characters from many different Fandoms.

Everyone is accepting of each other and it’s such a great community. I’m so happy to be a part of it especially in our small town.

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Thoughts, Uncategorized

Why I love Autumn

I love Autumn it is my favourite season without a doubt.

The things I love about Autumn are; the colours, the leaves are changing, all of a sudden people start wearing oranges, reds, browns and all sorts of autumn colours. As well as this the clothes, I love wearing plaid, greys, still get away with wearing skirts and cardigans. Comfy jumpers, not having to show my legs and also layers are all great reasons to love autumn.

I also find autumn is a great time to go some where cosy and read a good book with a nice hot chocolate.  It’s also great weather to light a fire or candles which i love.

Halloween is in autumn which is also another reason why I love Autumn. I use Halloween as an excuse to eat loads of chocolate and Halloween themed snacks and watch films such as Hocus Pocus and Ghostbusters.

The food is amazing; soup, pies, root vegetables, cheesey foods, no one judges you for eating more potatoey foods or more food in general. The healthiness of summer and trying to get the perfect summer body disappears and diets go out the window which is soooo much better and less pressure.

Not to mention that tv shows start back again in autumn which is another reason to love Autumn. You can snuggle into your duvet or blanket and binge watch episodes of your favourite shows and it’s perfectly acceptable.

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Fandom, Uncategorized

‘Geek’ Girls

Women have been into ‘geeky’ things and fandoms since they were created but why do we get challenged by men and other people to prove that we really are a ‘Geek’ or into a certain fandom.

I have been into Harry Potter since I could read the books and even before that my mum bought the first Harry Potter film on video. I love Harry Potter and everyone who knows me knows I love Harry Potter. That’s all that should matter that I like Harry Potter not whether I’m a girl or whether I know the colour of the carpet in the hallway of privet drive (it’s green by the way). Men aren’t questioned about the things they love like the marvel universe or DC universe, if they say they like those things then they’re asked what shows they watch and they talk about the shows. I’ve been told that I’m not a ‘real’ fan of Marvel because I don’t watch Agents of Shield. This is ridiculous!

Why is a woman who is a geek or a ‘fangirl’ depicted as someone who is crazy about one character and only because they’re hot and also attacking anyone who also liked that character. I’m not saying that no one is like that. But you cannot push all the fangirls or women into this one tiny category.

Why should gender affect the way people appreciate and enjoy various different fandoms?

 

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Thoughts, Uncategorized

My October Bucket List

Have a huge me day for the weekend before Halloween

Be halfway moved out of the house

Organise my blog posts better

Read more when you feel anxious and need to calm down, it helps better than looking at Facebook I promise

Watch a film you really want to watch and don’t worry about what other people think

See your friends but also be smart with your money

Think about something you really want to do that’s not too hard and do it.

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Fandom, Uncategorized

Favourite female character 

Jody Mills – Supernatural

Jody Mills loses a lot when we first meet her, her husband and her son are both dead at the end of the episode we first see her in and she is now exposed to the supernatural world. She learns a lot about the Supernatural goings on and she learns to defend herself. Even when she meets Donna she is a little skeptical about letting her guard down even for a second. She takes in both Alex and Claire and with them she takes both of their troubled pasts and tries to give them a normal life and make them go to school even though their lives have been interrupted by the supernatural. She parents both of the girls and sometimes even the Winchesters. She even managed to deal with Crowley and live. I also think that Kim Rhodes portrayed the character of Jody Mills beautifully and I am so thankful for this amazing, underrated, parent like character who isn’t perfect and that’s ok.

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