I know we haven’t spoken for quite a long time.
I know it’s just because we’re busy work……I hope it’s just because we’re busy with work.
You were always my best friend, you always had my back and made sure I was ok and I always spoke to you about everything.
I asked you out…..you said no and I wasn’t sure what to do with myself. I was a mess, a really bad mess, I hid it well. I slowly got over it and we hung out more and slowly you fell for me. I still can’t believe you asked me out while I was standing in my doorway, you were my first kiss that summer.
We shouldn’t have gone out at that point, you went away for 3 weeks straight after and I was slowly breaking. We had just finished school and I didn’t know what life was gonna be like then, it scared me a lot. I’m so sorry for taking out all that stress on you and making you feel like it was your fault.
I’m sorry I was so distant with you. I’m sorry I shut you out. I’m sorry I spoke to our best friend about things instead of you. It was supposed to be you I promise. I’m sorry that when you said maybe we should break up I just agreed and said ok. I’m sorry we broke up on Facebook Messenger. I’m sorry I shut you and the guys out after we broke up. I’m sorry I had a mental breakdown and didn’t tell any of you guys about it.
I miss your stupid faces so much.
I wish things hadn’t ended. I wish they had ended differently. I wish we were still close.
Don’t miss our relationship it wasn’t great it barely lasted a month and it still hurt us so much. Three years and I’m still getting over it. I’m still scared to let someone else in. I’m still scared I’ll shut the next one out and have another breakdown and shut all my friends out again. How could our relationship mess me up this much.
I haven’t dated since because it scares me. I miss our friendship.
Don’t be a stranger in my life.