Fandom, Thoughts

My time at a con on Sunday

So I went to my third con on Sunday and I went with my friend, it was her first ever con.

I cosplayed as Dean Winchester for the con and we had lots of fun. She didn’t feel well so she didn’t cosplay but she was going to go as Clara Oswald. At the con there were loads of other like minded people who also love their own fandoms. There were Harley Quinns, Deadpools, Jack Skellington, the 11th doctor, The Ghostbusters, characters from Star Wars, Characters from the Labyrinth, and so many other characters from many different Fandoms.

Everyone is accepting of each other and it’s such a great community. I’m so happy to be a part of it especially in our small town.

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Why I love Autumn

I love Autumn it is my favourite season without a doubt.

The things I love about Autumn are; the colours, the leaves are changing, all of a sudden people start wearing oranges, reds, browns and all sorts of autumn colours. As well as this the clothes, I love wearing plaid, greys, still get away with wearing skirts and cardigans. Comfy jumpers, not having to show my legs and also layers are all great reasons to love autumn.

I also find autumn is a great time to go some where cosy and read a good book with a nice hot chocolate.¬† It’s also great weather to light a fire or candles which i love.

Halloween is in autumn which is also another reason why I love Autumn. I use Halloween as an excuse to eat loads of chocolate and Halloween themed snacks and watch films such as Hocus Pocus and Ghostbusters.

The food is amazing; soup, pies, root vegetables, cheesey foods, no one judges you for eating more potatoey foods or more food in general. The healthiness of summer and trying to get the perfect summer body disappears and diets go out the window which is soooo much better and less pressure.

Not to mention that tv shows start back again in autumn which is another reason to love Autumn. You can snuggle into your duvet or blanket and binge watch episodes of your favourite shows and it’s perfectly acceptable.

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My October Bucket List

Have a huge me day for the weekend before Halloween

Be halfway moved out of the house

Organise my blog posts better

Read more when you feel anxious and need to calm down, it helps better than looking at Facebook I promise

Watch a film you really want to watch and don’t worry about what other people think

See your friends but also be smart with your money

Think about something you really want to do that’s not too hard and do it.

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So you want to work in IT?

I am a Woman who works as a technician in a repair centre.

I repair photo printers, computers, servers, ¬†receipt printers, projectors, opticians equipment etc. I don’t work in an IT department and i don’t work with software so unfortunately it won’t be much help to any of you who are interested in that side of things but if you have any questions I would be more than happy to try and help answer your questions.

I work in a very heavily male environment and apart from one person I am not treated any different because I am a woman or because I am younger. What you do learn is that once you become part of the team they all band together for one another. Although they may give you a bit of stick it’s banter and I absolutely give it back every time I can but if someone else from higher up or a stranger started on anyone else we would stick up for them, I know I would and I have seen them do it. If you’re stuck on how to repair something because you may not have seen that fault before or you’ve not worked on them for a long time, they are always happy to give advice or help in anyway they can but also in a way that it’s not done for you and you learn to do it yourself.

As a woman we find certain situations scary but please don’t let this stop you from pursuing a career in IT, we are just as good as men in IT but if we never go into these fields then how can little girls see women working in the industries they want.

IT can be anything, working in IT can mean anything. There are various jobs, Electrical Engineer, IT Technician, Someone who works in the IT department, Someone who repairs IT equipment, Someone who is heavily working on Software, Someone who is heavily working on Hardware, Someone who does programming and coding. There are so many different fields for anyone who has even an interest in IT or computers. Always research the kind of job you decide you like, I found myself asking my friends who work in various IT sectors for their advice and experience and that helped me decide on more hardware based work and eventually helped me decide to go for an apprenticeship.

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My September Bucket List

Bake more often

Clear out my office fully, deep clean, organise all the documents properly.

Take a Me day or at least half a Me day every week

Take more time to read

Revise theory to the point you’re almost ready for the test. (Revise everyday!!).

Make time to go out with friends because they mean a lot to you and it helps you more than you know. (That includes Games nights!!).

Finally organise that Holiday with the girls!!

Try and actually work on your anxiety and mental health. Try to cope better with it.

Treasure your family more because they won’t live forever and you love them

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My Grandad is dying…..

I was struggling with what to write. My grandad has been through a lot, he’s had a brain tumour, a heart attack and then his brain tumour came back. Now he’s so slow and forgetting things. The other day he fell over and it took my grandmother ages to get him back up again. He is now confined to his bed and isn’t allowed to get up unless someone else is there unless he needs the toilet as that is close by.

He doesn’t want to get up otherwise anyway. I think he is finally reaching the end of his life and although it hurts and saddens me that my family have all suddenly come to this realisation, he has had a good and long life.

That’s what people say isn’t it.. They’ve lived a good long life, it’s supposed to make you feel better but all you really care about is just how little of their life you’ve been able to spend with them. Or you think couldn’t they hold on for another year just for me. He first got his brain tumour when I was doing my GCSE’s at school and then he had his heart attack the first year of College. Timing in our family is always awful.

He’s never liked me. I wasn’t his granddaughter biologically so he didn’t care about me. He was always shouting at me or having a go at me about something and anything he could. But I still love him, he’s my grandad and occasionally he was nice, he used to let me go to the bakery with him when he would pick up the weekly bits for the house such as bread and a bun for Saturday and he would let me pick a cake or biscuit every time. He would go to the betting shop and I would wait outside and then we would go to the newsagents to get a newspaper and sometimes he would let me get a sweetie. On our way back from town we would always watch the trains from the bridge.

And although he never liked me, he tolerated me and that was very like him. And although I never liked him or got on with him I always loved him and always tolerated him. I also have very fond memories of him when he goes I hope he will go in peace and I’m not worried about not having nice memories with him anymore.

(I wrote this yesterday before I found out he has days maybe weeks left to live so I will leave this up but this subject is now a lot tougher than before).

Mental Health, Thoughts

To My Ex Boyfriend


I know we haven’t spoken for quite a long time.

I know it’s just because we’re busy work……I hope it’s just because we’re busy with work.

You were always my best friend, you always had my back and made sure I was ok and I always spoke to you about everything.

I asked you out… said no and I wasn’t sure what to do with myself. I was a mess, a really bad mess, I hid it well. I slowly got over it and we hung out more and slowly you fell for me. I still can’t believe you asked me out while I was standing in my doorway, you were my first kiss that summer.

We shouldn’t have gone out at that point, you went away for 3 weeks straight after and I was slowly breaking. We had just finished school and I didn’t know what life was gonna be like then, it scared me a lot. I’m so sorry for taking out all that stress on you and making you feel like it was your fault.

I’m sorry I was so distant with you. I’m sorry I shut you out. I’m sorry I spoke to our best friend about things instead of you. It was supposed to be you I promise. I’m sorry that when you said maybe we should break up I just agreed and said ok. I’m sorry we broke up on Facebook Messenger. I’m sorry I shut you and the guys out after we broke up. I’m sorry I had a mental breakdown and didn’t tell any of you guys about it.

I miss your stupid faces so much.

I wish things hadn’t ended. I wish they had ended differently. I wish we were still close.

Don’t miss our relationship it wasn’t great it barely lasted a month and it still hurt us so much. Three years and I’m still getting over it. I’m still scared to let someone else in. I’m still scared I’ll shut the next one out and have another breakdown and shut all my friends out again. How could our relationship mess me up this much.

I haven’t dated since because it scares me. I miss our friendship.

Don’t be a stranger in my life.